The Beauty of Rain

Its been a very long time since I have set foot here! I believe the rain has washed away the lack of creativity and with my new start, I have a new space to fill... To walk into the room for the first time again. Twisted it sounds but not so! New beginnings with a remembrance. I had a past. One that I would say was an experience. I can't remember everything and sometimes that is really difficult to face. What I do know is the lessons that I have learned along the way have made a lasting impression to get to where I am today. Its a beautiful thing. I listened. I listened to all those experiences along the way that formed me who I am today. My strong point is not writing however I will do my best to convey the message. Our lives changing at a very rapid pace. We who have lived before seem to be colliding with those past lives. Its refreshing to know that I ran into the soul that I have been trying to intervene this whole time. Synchronicities and events that follow happen for a reason and I decided a few years ago that it was time to listen and believed with all my heart that something beautiful could exist. So here I am today with a new outlook on life. I listened to the time and the space. I listened to the lessons along the way, knowing that it aint over yet baby! I know I'm on the right track. For those of you who have recently left this plain. I miss you and I love you! I am here to listen still... always

Slow Down Baby

So much pressure. This world has a way of eating me alive at times. I can feel the need to speed it up but in reality all I want to do is slow it way down. I am not much for fast anymore and with the sudden life changes, it gives me all that more of a reason to do it. I lay here and dream about the times before all this technology. Back when we used to write in a journal instead of a blog. I want that back. I want to work hard to prepare a yummy feast, and quite often I do more than most. I want to go fishing to add to the dinner plate; Make clothes with my hands, and read a good book when I want to pass the time! Stare at the flowers in the vase that I picked in my beautiful garden! Most of all, I want peace~ Sending amazing love and restfulness to you~ Jaima

Your reality

Walking down the street with a fresh breath of air...It stings my lungs Reality takes over and tears begin to fall. I reach into my pocket with one last hope that the fate I have to face will be simple and unique. I leave my home to follow a new route...the one that we all hope is less traveled and yet it gives us the desire for life. The journey begins next week. If only my patience were so good. I live for this desire...for this truth of where we are and what we attempt to do with it. I wake up daily...no regrets...just happiness and chin in the air....never to look back. I'm out there...reaching, but not searching, not looking...just feeling, yearning without connection. It will come... it will stop hurting. Life goes on, people recover, people learn. I believe... The truth is the only way! THe colors come to me to help me solve the riddle...the one of life and dreams.... I've got this!

You

Catching my eye is something that has never really been a problem... Dreaming alive... Looking for anything, everything. Feels like the one...you are a million miles away. I still have a chance to dream every moment I am able. Life is beautiful, been through hell and failure to get to this point. But I am here...Maybe someday you will appear before me. I keep my chin up and my fingers crossed every day that my patience will show my desire. Until then... LOVE

Benjamins

Created tamely by desire and a hope for the universe to change their overall thinking....

Life isn't about the every day desires of wanting. It is about love...the act, the kindness, the feeling, the hope the future...the greatest of all things...able to survive starvation, creation, elevation, destruction, ...whatever comes to it, from it, beside it.

ITs all a mess of sorts. To believe in the impossible is more that society can handle. Am I society...no way in hell and I society...haha I said hell like I believe in it. Hell is what you make it.

Inspired by life I end that search...it appears right before me in the form of a twin...

Cheers to friends~

I arrived not knowing what to expect after all these years...but that friendly smile soon reminded me that I had nothing to worry about. The kindness was shown right off with a simple smile, a hug that was timeless followed by another couple introductions. I sat there laughing right off watching what made me turn my head three times...yes....THE WIZARD OF OZ...tee hee
After catching up on funny old things and shooting it for a bit with the newbies...we set off with a plan of a beer and some more laughter...
There were 4 of us...all with gentle smiles and a need of complete entertainment. As most of you know it only takes one for me to admit that nothing will phase me.
Laughing, laughing some food another beer and some more laughing. Skidding trough the ice rain on the streets...dancing like Laverne and Shirley...Realizing that 2 of the four of us had the same birthday...how rare is that. Then you gotta add the karaoke toward the end which had me in absolute hysterics...not because we were fowl, but because we all had talents which we had no idea we knew we had. I haven't cried from laughing in a long time. I feel amazing and the friendships I made in one evening could last a lifetime. I am truly happy to be a part of that and really have never felt that companionship before...

Cheers to my new buddies...may your travels be amazing and your lives be full of light eternally!

MWAH!

Cold and breaking through

My heart stopped...

Hit it, punch it, restart it.

I walk through life with an angel by my side...helping me to grow. Teaching me that life is all about what It can be. Reminds me daily that things could be so simple. Problem being that this angel means so much. I value what this angel is in my life.
Working on trying to understand the point, the natural feel of this amazing element.
What I do see is the 3 angels living here on earth that I must care for and teach my daily lessons to. They are everything to me. I have certain talents and tasks that I must teach them.
The balance between this angel and my earth angels is tough but this morning I seem to finally be seeing a moment of clarity. Funny how something as simple as your own breath can control the deepest most difficult choices in your life.

Happiness is what I truly seek...if I remember to breathe I may see a huge difference